Bio

I grew up an eccentric, nerdy tomboy with extrasensory perception; obsessed with nature, patterns, and etymology. As a psychically inclined child, I always found myself entangled with the supernatural. I didn't have a mentor to teach me about my extrasensory perception or authenticity, so I was absorbing all of the energy around me that wasn't mine like a sponge. If someone around me was having a bad day, it was me bearing the weight of it for them, whether they intended to offload onto me or not. Nothing is easier to bear than the suffering of others. 

I allowed the world to shame me into thinking that who I am naturally is bad, and my teenage years were spent attempting to fill this shame with sex, drugs, and rock and roll. If you want to see bad, I’ll show you bad. I don't even know who or what I was rebelling against, but if someone was looking for a fight, they got one from me. Aries core. The truth is that I was in deep pain, and I actually didn't know who I was because every "I" statement that I made was contradictory to the first. "I said I am not going to do drugs again, but here I am doing drugs despite knowledge of the consequences and fondling the idea of sobriety. How insane this "I" must be? This is the complete opposite of the human instinct of self-preservation." After becoming addicted to methamphetamine at only 19 years old and experiencing intermittent homelessness with an abusive boyfriend who was too busy cheating on me with my best friend, I lost the will to live. Luckily for me, my divine intervention arrived in the form of a pink slip, which is Ohio's involuntary psychiatric hospitalization. From here, I knew that I desired a better life for myself, but I didn't know how to do it on my own, and so I admitted myself to rehab. Here I had my first spiritual awakening and was introduced into objective spiritual teachings (what we call the mesoteric). I began deep healing work, and I learned how to maintain my sobriety. Despite being sober in sunny South Florida and feeling pretty good about this reality, I still felt like a part of me was stuck somewhere in time. I quit using drugs and was left with the same angsty little girl who picked them up in the first place. You may renounce any material desires you'd like as enlightenment. But the real work begins with the renouncing of your favorite brand of suffering.

At 23, I began working in drug and alcohol treatment as a counselor to help others recover from their addiction. Within one year, I lost two of my dearest to addiction, one of them being my child's father, and the second being my then-boyfriend and co-worker. The grief was astronomical; however, I continued to show up for my clients and exceed work expectations until I burned myself out in the name of productivity. Shortly after quitting my counseling job to focus on my mental and physical health, my brother died. Three deaths in 1.5 years. When I look back, loss has served its part in my life as initiation into the spirit world.. but at the time I felt like a cornered rat, completely at the will of something much larger than me. It didn't matter how hard I tried to make sense of it or how hard I tried to fight it. It always came back to having no choice but to accept defeat. The irony around the term surrender is that it's actually a war term. You don't surrender when things are going good. You surrender after you've fought your best and you're still getting your ass kicked. There is nothing else you can do but wave that white flag in hopes you can save what you still have. There is no reward for conscious suffering; however, by law, there is a reward through conscious surrender. 

At 24, I experienced an abrupt kundalini awakening, which to me, arrived as an almost miraculous solution and answer to my prayer for the soul-shattering grief, loss, and trauma I'd experienced. It was the kind of "white light awakening" that you read about in books. Colors were brighter. The grief, depression, and longing for something that I could never obtain dissolved. I experienced everything as One for the first time in my life, 3 years sober, without the use of psychedelics. It was my psychic activation, and I was back in business. I started offering cheap readings online in my hometown to build my skill and accuracy. After doing 200+ readings for my clients and friends, with mostly positive and often profound results, I'd recognized a pattern that gave me better insight into what my clients were actually seeking, other than cheap magic tricks: alchemy. I knew I didn't want to continue fishing for my clients; I wanted to teach them how to fish. I had reached the point of knowing that I needed better tools and stronger spiritual teachings if I wanted to make a bigger and lasting difference, and so I studied hard and founded King Alchemy, where I teach that miracles are not something that happens to you; they are something that you forge.

In my seeking, I've: 

  • counseled 150+ women and men in their drug and alcohol recovery

  • navigated a spontaneous kundalini awakening

  • opened a magnetic spiritual business, averaging 1k new followers a week

  • done 200+ psychic readings for clients with good reviews

  • crashed this same business 

  • became certified in Reiki 1 & 2, a nice side quest

  • found the greatest spiritual teacher ever 

  • studied esotericism, primarily Western esotericism 
  • studied business

  • built systems to handle more clients, teachings, and money

  • refined my spiritual teachings to attract a bigger audience

  • diagnosed with PTSD 

  • ditched the politics of the DSM and began diagnosing my own blocks 

  • lost 3 of the coolest people in my life

  • was slightly traumatized by super uncool people 

  • met some really amazing people

  • transformed my deepest trauma into wisdom

  • navigated adversity with honor

  • reopened for business 

I know what it's like to have the odds stacked against you. I know what it's like to be in immense pain that you're unsure you'll ever recover from. I know what it's like to curse God, and I also know what it's like to work in a state of flow with God. Your feelings of pain, bitterness, and frustration are not an accident.  They are designed to command your conscious attention to what you're creating. The pain that you feel today is what is pushing you to birth a new future. It's a physiological contraction that invites the body to be an observer of its own creation process. You can work in flow with the contraction by taking a deep breath and allowing the pain to pass through you; transforming the pain into pleasure with every breath... or you can reject the pain completely, which will substantially slow the process of the birthing of a new reality.

The truth is, there is no one solution that you can manifest to solve your problems. Stop chasing that one thing that would make the pain of your reality slightly tolerable once you obtain it. I know you because I am you. "If I finally had X, then I would feel better." Cut it out. That's called withdrawal, and what you need isn't a quick fix. You need stronger teachings, hard work and objective alchemical systems that are coherent with your creative goals.. and nobody can teach you this except me, so stick around and subscribe to our newsletter. ;)